Seeking Allah and Our Loneliness !

 It is the one of the magic of Allah, when we try to seek Him, our emptiness and hollowness is gone.

 Throughout history, men have done extraordinary things to seek pleasure, to amuse their minds, to explore, to invent and discover by stretching their creative endeavors and horizons of imaginations - but the loneliness is never really gone. We have fought thousands of years of wars, we seen the magic of science and technology, of philosophy and mathematics, we have invented new religions and cults, we took protection in intoxications of mind, of physicality, we travelled the world, we read thousands of fictitious characters- but it seems that we are not yet done, and we are still travelers and yearning for our final destination.  The loneliness is never gone. 

I understood one thing at early twenties that I have to do tremendous amount of work to counter this anxiety and restlessness, in my imagination, I have empire of my own, there are nations and countries in it, there various amusements in my imagination that I observe simply by locking myself in dark room. I am an overthinker- I collect scenarios, pictures, memories, songs, movies, and lot of thoughts, to recreate them as per my wishes and conclusions but yet I am not done, it seems that intrinsically I am alone. 

After 30s, it becomes obvious to you that the only real connection is your bond with Allah. everything else is temporary, so temporary that when these people will leave you, they won't even leave their footprint behind you. All your associations, all your efforts, your financial and emotional investment is just a matter of one random change in their lives, on random decision of their circumstances, and perhaps when they are deciding to leave you, they won't even consider asking your approval for that. On one sunny bright day, they will reveal it to you that they got job somewhere else, they are moving abroad, they are leaving...and that is it, years of your investment is gone, stories are gone, your co-shared thoughts are gone. 

Men keep searching for amusement, any creative person would do it, they will look for meaningful relationship- loyal friend, good college, teacher or any of your relatives- they all are bound to leave. unfortunately, the times that we live... in such times, people are not really looking for organic relationships, the friends that will complete them, that will make them better people, intellectually or otherwise. This whole act of socializing requires so much of us, and in return, it's just a number of how much people showed up on your funeral- it's very much transactional, you give, and people return you... nothing more than that. h I don't assess people on what are they capable of offering me as person, rather I would look for their story and for the causes that they would stand, if there is any ideological alignment between us, then more likely we can be friends for long time in any shared time and space, but that is just that, nothing more than that.

And what does Allah offer us? 

He provides us the psychological fortress, the resilience, the flexibility of judgement, the acceptance and there is feeling of wholeness, when you are in transcendental state of prayer, the wow moments occur when you really apply your mind while seeking Allah. This is another universe, this act of pursuing- there are various names, verses and situational messages through which you can relate to Allah, these situations are universal historically, and are repetitive as mentioned in Holy Quran. 

Once you understand the nature of this relationship, you seek help from divine, your yearning and restlessness is addressed and the departure people around you don't affect you, because you understand the basic rules of game, the wordly amusements are distractions and waste of your time, your time is your life, I have seen people investing decades in absurd amusements.

Take out time for Allah, invest in Him, Invest your time and money with Him, Help those who need it, bring people to Allah, and be a bridge, then you will see how your lonely garden will blossom with beautiful flowers of all kind. It is never about your, it is not your story, we all are side characters, this world is story of Allah and His Prophet. 

The hollowness, the emptiness, the helplessness will be gone. That is the divine medicine of Prophets. Make a list of the beautiful verses, and recite them, create  a imaginative castle where you will be praising Allah and His Prophet, and then see how your mood, emotions and thoughts change, and how you as person will evolve and change, showing extraordinary discipline, grace and mindfulness.