How to channelize your anger into creative persuits?

Some events are transformational at so many levels. They change your core. You're redefined by those events. It changes your ethos and your holistic perspective of how you view yourself in relation to others. Life throws you circumstances to shake your foundations and then slowly and gradually your desired goals move out of your sight. It makes you angry... Very angry. I have been very angry for long time. I have wasted important years with my anger. You as man has to reconcile with your anger. You have to forgive everyone else including yourself. Forgiving yourself is not a romantic idea, it's filled with lot of pain, guilt, filth and monster ego of yourself. You have to reduce your ego so that it can bow down through a very narrow tunnel. Forgiving requires grace. Only blessed ones have the grace. 

The fundamental question that you have to address during your mid life years is weather you want to bleed your injured soul or do you want to heal it. The only beneficiary of forgiving and healing is you yourself. You want to sleep peacefully, you want to get rid of your anxiety and you want to stop that race of thoughts in your mind.. You want to settle it. It's your internal crisis. For others, it's just a routine issue. Bad mood, bad temperament or a spoiled personality. The only kind thing others can do is to ignore your tantrums. They have moved on, they have other numerous issues to tackle, they are fighting other personal heavy battles of their own. 

So the next important question is what do I do with this anger?

For the last 14 years I have had numerous experiments on myself to overcome this anger. There are various amusement, explorations and adventures that life may offer you. You can loose weight, out anger you can pray for years, out of anger you can write a novel or out of anger you can start a relationship and have kids. You can find yourself immense amount of creative work. Writing for instance - You write with honesty and authenticity about how you feel, it gives you sense of catharsis, by writing you talk to yourself, out of anger you can watch thousands of movies, documentaries and listen to numerous genres of music - Turkish, Spanish and Arabic music. You can watch YouTube for years, listen to thousands of podcasts- political, science, philosophy, religious, sufism and on meditation and yoga, and on fitness and intermittent fasting.

And then you're tired after 14 years. You come back to Allah. You pray for soothing your soul. For ease. For comfort. For emotional release. And suddenly you feel joy in your tired soul after a decade, you can cling on something. 

It's the name of Allah, that gives you peace of mind. Our heart is sick. That massive monster ego will only go through small tunnel when you'll surrender to the higher agency. Something that can restore your balance. Something that is balance in itself and that is God. 

So now you sit down and plan the rest of your years. The years of anticipation, not disengagement, years of showing grace, not anger... Years of teaching and practicing forgiveness and Trusting the lord. If it can fix you, the arrogant you, the egotistical you then it can fix anyone else around you. 

You look at people, they are hurt, angry and offended. They want revenge. They want violence. With Allah's mercy you tell them your story of forgiveness. 

It's not that I don't get angry now. I do get angry, but I look at holistic mission of my life. Can I afford anymore irrelevant absurd stunts in my life that may injure my soul?

I'd just foccus on building my connection with Allah, improving my life, with better mindset and enhance my horizons of imagination. That's how you use anger in your favor for achieving great things!